Eggs for dinner.

I thought it was the stupidest thing ever...at first. Obviously I became more understandable as I knew more about it. But I'm still not sure why it would just happen...so spontaneously, or so it seems. Is it out of the blue? Something bottled up deep inside? Or is it just the "in" thing to do? I realize that it isn't what it seems, it isn't as shallow as it can be portrayed. I do wondered how come it isn't allowed to be known by others? How come it has be kept a secret...even from the people you trust the most, the people you've known all your life, the people you can depend your life on. Why was it so bad, so...frowned upon if anyone knew? I hear stories of when people let other people know, and they say that their life turns upside down (not that it wasn't to start with)...I don't get it, how could letting the people you can depend your life on, make everything so much worse? It doesn't make sense.





I wish I could say that I could tell the people I trust the most, the people I would, on any day, depend my life on. I wish I could say that I don't understand, that it just happened spontaneously. I wish I could tell someone, tell anyone. But now I understand, just exactly why you can never let anyone know.

All over now... I think.

Does anyone ever get over someone, and you are damn sure of it...that you're completely over them, that you guys are just in the friends zone, and 100% sure of it. But there are those, flicker of times, that if feels as if you've fell back to where you were...maybe couple months ago? Sort of like a relapse, but it doesn't last very long. Maybe for part of the day, for a couple hours, or even just for that train of thought. You repeatedly make me feel that way, why do you do it?

Money, money, money, money, money...

...I don't have any, which makes me sad :( The month of june is going to rob me broke...again. I've been dirt poor all of May, and in June, I have a gazillion birthday presents to buy for people...and been asked to go shopping as a celebration of school being over. Ugh. I really hope my students are going to keep doing piano throughout June... I need the money. And Sephora's opening on July 10th, so need to save for that! So there is 39 days till Jonas Brothers concert, so stoked!!!

Sephora Wishlist; eyes only

Urban Decay Ammo Eye Palette: $36

Urban Decay Eyeshadow: $16
in Blaze, YDK, Jones, Half-Baked, Stray Dog, Flash, and Oil Slick

Urban Decay Primer Potion: $17
in Sheer Nude


MAKE UP FOR EVER Pure Pigments: $19
in No. 14 Violet, and No. 18 Emerald Green


MAKE UP FOREVER Aqua Eyes Collection: $35

NARS Duo Eye Shadow: $32
in Bohemian Gold (metallic taupe/iridescent copper), Cheyenne (metallic sienna/burgundy plum), Earth Angel (bronzed taupe shimmer, olive shimmer), Jolie Poupee (matte lavender/violet shimmer), Sea, Sex & Sun (shimmering moss/golden mustard), and Surbaya (brown sugar/chestnut)

Stila Convertible Eye Color: $22
in Clove, Stone and Teak


Too Faced Eyeshadow Duo: $17
in Cocoa Lilly (rich metallic chocolate bornw/glimmering lilac rose), and Full Frontal (bronzed chocolate, spiced orange)

Smashbox Single Eye Shadow: $16
in Cabernet, Flamingo, Green Room, Serpent, and Torch

CARGO Color Eyeshadow Palette: $28
in Baja (bronze sheen/light pink sheen/matte peach/shimmering beige taupe), Bermuda (shimmering pale khaki, matte chocolate brown/bronze sheen/shimmering copper), London (matte dark brown/shimmering pale gold/matte eggplant/deep olive sheen), Shanghai, (white shimmer/matte peach beige/shimmer golden pink/deep taupe shimmer), and Tahiti (pale golden green shimmer/light forest green shimmer/vibran blue shimmer/dark teal blue shimmer)

I so need to save money.

I....ate a bug. *Cough*

Okay. I didn't actually eat a bug. But I am studying (rare, I know), I have so much to study. Thanks to procrastination. Well. 3ish more weeks of school, and it's overrrrrr!!! I am so stoked for summer. Well, back to studying.

And I have to go work later. FML.

Well...there goes Canucks' season.

I suppose there is always next year. Still. It sucks. I hope either Anaheim or Detroit crushes the stupid fucking Blackhawks in the conferance finals. Yeah, I'm bitter.

On another note,
I can't exactly say that I feel sorry for you...or...however you want to put it. And neither does your friends. I'm estatic about it, to be honest. Not in a oh-because-i'm-jealous-way, it's more of knowing that maybe you'll turn back to what you were before.

One week. Apology message.

I think the title pretty much summarized my thoughts. One week later, an apology message. I don't know how I feel about it. I think it got me even more frustrated.

The message was pretty damn loud and clear. Hope you got it, bud.

It's been five days since I've spoken to you, and I'm feeling better than ever. Just seeing you yesterday for a span of two seconds infuriated me, it ruined the rest of my day. Yeah, that's how much you've angered me. Today is the first day I follow my new philosophy, and the goal is to keep my temper in check. And I've gotta say, today was a very good test of my temper. Having to deal with your presence for an hour...I'm gonna say, was pretty damn impressive. I can't believe I was able to control myself so well, no eye contact, no acknowledgement, I pretended like you didn't exist.

Did you get the message? It wasn't hard to figure.