I admit it. Sometimes, more often than not, I wish I had someone. I know that probably sounds really desperate or something, but I mean it. Sometimes I feel very lonely, even with all the friends that I have, the loneliness that ensues sometimes, no matter how many friends I have, I still feel very lonely. Sometimes I feel very alone when I'm frustrated, and all I want is a hug from someone who loves me no matter what. I want someone to hold my hand, and tell me everything is going to be okay, and that I can get through whatever it is. I'm the last person that will ever show my vulnerable side, so I will never admit in real life how I really feel. I will forever be the person that puts on a brave face and tells herself that everything is going to be okay.
Its those moments when you feel so alone and you have nobody, is when you really start questioning yourself, and wondering what is wrong with you. You have so many friends and a loving family, why on earth do you feel so alone, and the obvious one, what is so wrong with me that I just simply seem to repel everyone? It's those moments where I feel the most vulnerable. Where I feel my weakest and am most embarrassed. I never want to be the girl that can't handle things on her own, I never want to be that girl that constantly needs reassurance from a man. I never want to be that girl.
But sometimes I just feel so incredibly lonely, all I want is someone to hold my hand and give me a hug. All I want is to just spend a day with someone special indoors, in our sweats and carefree. I just want someone that I can always rely on no matter what. I just want someone.
....I never want to be the girl that needs someone. But I need someone. I put on a strong face because I have to.
